The Truth About NATLFED

December 18, 2016

Christmas scams

Filed under: Cult,NATLFED,Politics,Uncategorized — ghostwriter1984 @ 20:20

It’s that time of year when folks go door to door purportedly collecting money or other resources for the poor.  There was one incident recently where someone collected a pick up truck filled with food in the bed, and then the person went to the local corner and started selling it.  Five or ten cents a can, etc.  They made an unknown amount of money before the police picked up the scammers.  Groups you never heard of suddenly are making their presence known.

Most people know the safest thing to do is bring your contribution to the established charities.  Every town has something, whether it is Salvation Army, Foodbank, Saint Vincent De Paul, Gospel Mission, etc.  The good Sisters are hard at work, working in concert with several other groups, for holiday dinners at various sites around town coupled with toy distributions.

As always, we encourage you to research the group you’re considering given a donation to, because not all are legitimate.

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October 18, 2016

Lost or Damaged

Filed under: Cult,NATLFED,Politics,Uncategorized — ghostwriter1984 @ 17:00

Survivor.  The very word conjures up one of two rationales of thought.  The glass is half full.  The person is strong, made it, things are getting better and the person will be okay in the end.  The glass is half empty.  The person is weak, continues to suffer, never truly recovers.  Some of you may object to this type of lumping or categorization of cult survivors.

Fear.  Many survivors suffer it.  After all, in the end something caused the person to leave, whether it was by personal intent or aggressive action.  There was a lot of abuse within the group.  Some cadre were berated verbally for months on end, told they were losers, worn down until they could take no more of it.  Others suffered at the hands of physical aggressors.  Another small group were subjected to medications given to them by non-medical persons looking up in the Physicians Desk Reference what they thought was best to control that person.

Apathy.  Some just don’t care to follow the various blogs or forums anymore.  It’s the same old crap.  They became burnt out a long time ago and realized those discussion groups did more harm than good.  They walked away; stopped contributing to the conversations.  They let the apologists wreak havoc and destroy such groups through mistrust, misinformation, and manipulation.

Memories.  As we age, things that were once important to us start to fade away.  We know we were misled and misguided.  We had a dream of fixing that which was broken.  Now, we carry on with the daily drudgery of our lives.  Some joined other movements or started something of their own, but most work paycheck to paycheck.  Another handful returned to the financial security of families with moderate wealth and/or the trust funds, recalling a time they acted out but returned to the fold.

Bull.  Have to include that one.  There are some who managed to rise to the top of the steaming pile as so-called experts on the cult when their participation was extremely minimal if even at all.  There was a time when most everyone knew others because of the NLC, but when those stopped what started was a period of isolationism.  Cadre in one entity had little to no idea of who was in other entities.

Come down from the trees.  A very funny exhortation rendered by a master that had cadre laughing.  Oh, he had other bits too that were funny including assorted miracles and the truth of water into wine.

People through money and money through people.  How many of you remember your inexperienced liaisons rendering that mantra?  They read from the EO or the STP’s and all you could think about was giving that kid a bucket and see him fall flat on his butt outside of the grocery store.  You knew you were in trouble when you actually got a liaison who worked in a field entity.  Of course, you still resented having to pay for the telephone call or use crazy code names.

Hardly anyone cares about such an eclectic group except those directly or indirectly affected by it.  Somehow, this “diminishes” the suffering or recovery process of those who were once in it.  It’s a tiny shrimp when compared to other groups that are blue whales or cachalot.  Every now and then, the group actually tries to retread certain persons back into the group.  Fool me once, shame on you; fool me twice, shame on me.  It’s different from those who felt the group had a revolving door, coming and going as they pleased, until it was no longer tolerated; then begging to return.

October 16, 2016

Recollecting, remembering, being told “X”

Filed under: Cult,NATLFED,Politics,Uncategorized — ghostwriter1984 @ 10:36

I recently re-read a story that I had not read in a long time.  Even though I was one of the authors, by the time Diane finished the magnum opus it was all about her.  Yes, those who knew her certainly can understand that.  She wanted former cadre to know her history with the group, and it was not the traditional “being stuck in the field” for years.  True, many former cadre did work in the field entities for many years.  Those who ended up at NOC did their tasks.

But there were those who did special tasks because the notion of taking over involved more than a faint glimmer of hope through a general strike.  There were the unsung sleepers, a couple of whom are still waiting for activation while most have given up or simply died.  There were the ties to other movements within the country and outside.  Yet discussing those ties seems to be taboo, or rather, treated as stories to amuse young naïve cadre.

No one has permission to re-print the story, in case anyone is wondering, because it is copyrighted and has been posted on Scribd since July 16, 2010.  It was also posted here earlier and remains in the blog archive.  However, knowing that apologists and trolls don’t give a damn, I know the story has been circulating through the various circles for a long time.  I bring this up at this time because I trashed a comment in moderation that referenced the story.  The person had fair warning; chose to ignore the verification process so after two days of no response to inquiry I decided it was one of those, “Let’s give her a nookie in the back and mess with her head,” type of scenarios.

So I re-read it and the memories flooded back about a woman I greatly admired.  I didn’t even mind being relegated such minor references or having some of my memorable events excised before publication.  I still remember the time arriving at the local entity with my parent, who opened the door (it was after 9:00 a.m.) and saw about twenty cadre still asleep on the floor atop foam pads.  The Operations Manager sat up and said, “Hello.”

I’ve posted the link to Reconnection Railroad because that is where the survivor stories go.  It gets zero hits because, quite frankly, no one gives a damn.  I added my introduction.  Then I thought about some of the more fantastical rumors.  As former cadre, we’ve heard them.  Many people went to Gino’s funeral to make sure he was really dead, and I can assure you he really did die.  There was a time when a small handful suggested that he made his great escape by faking his death.  It would have been relatively easy.  He was surrounded by a close-knit circle of persons willing to do anything.  What are people saying about Elvis?  Wax figure buried in the grave?  Quick — someone check it out on Snopes.

Ah, but I digress!  It’s been emotionally taxing remembering the deaths — tragedies that might have been averted.  I know of several who might have survived if they were afforded treatment at the onset of symptoms rather than delaying until recourse impossible.  Of course, that doesn’t always happen.  Diane went through years of treatment with the leukemia and it eventually took her.  She was a fighter.  I guess in the end we all thought she was going to make it.  The bone marrow transplant went very well, she seemed to be doing well, she started up her work again and then overdid it.  Didn’t give herself enough time to recover, best anyone can figure.

Most former cadre do not like discussing their activities in public forums.  The private forums were infiltrated a long time ago and trust remains an issue.  There are those who choose to remain in contact with other former cadre.  There are some who refuse to believe it ever was a cult while others still believe it was one from Day One.  There’s a minority who believe it started out with best intentions, sincerest efforts, a hegemonic force to be reckoned with; it lost its way somehow and ended up as a cult.

Seriously — five minutes after a senior member passes away in a hospital and the local office is starting to call donors to contribute money for the funeral?  Is that for real?  Oh wait, make that ten minutes.  Someone had to take care of the benefits request that walked in the door.  Here’s the clothing closet, help yourself, everybody else start dialing.

As I re-read the story, I remembered the buckets of dimes.  The offices used to have pay phones.  From what I understand, those are long gone.  I could be wrong.  There might be one or two offices that still have one.  I remember making phone calls from the payphone.  What a pain in the ass.  I always preferred going to a donor’s house because it was quiet.  Let’s face it: it was simply too much activity going on in the office trying to drop dimes and call people.

No one really seems to get it.  I’m talking about a particular period of time in the Organization that few remember.  Why?  Most are dead, that’s why.  Those who aren’t have long since moved on to other things.  They may get a chuckle out of dropping dimes but they’ll whip out their cellphones and enjoy unlimited dialing perks.

Just remember that there are people still trapped, looking for a way out or just so blinded they can’t see any other way.  How it manages to survive is difficult.  The days of single cadre entities have returned, with recruitment insufficient to the task of re-staffing those offices.  Persons who never spent a day in the field are elevated to leadership positions while those who toil suffer the barrage of criticisms.  People through money, money through people — how many times have you heard it or ordered it?

There are curious weather phenomena that will be exploited by the group.  No one cares about that.  I doubt anyone cares that the fronts will do all they can to channel monies and other resources out of the communities most in need.  Why does a local donor have to make out his check to the 501c3 instead of the local office if it’s over $100?  Shouldn’t the local just get the money?  And does that money ever come back to the local?  No.

It’s been difficult over the years but I’m still here.  I may not be as active as I used to because life happens and there are other things far more important.  Considering it’s been twenty years and I still suffer the occasional nookie in the back just demonstrates the persistence of those determined to defend the cult.  No one else is writing about this stuff.  No one else dares contradict the community angels doing nice things for farm workers or service workers.

I’m sure when I do finally bite the dust that someone’s going to piss on my grave.  That’s okay, it’ll keep away the worms for a while.  Leave a penny on my headstone so others will know you dropped by.  Not a nickel, dime, or quarter.  Those denominations have different meanings.

October 15, 2016

Talking about the weather…and those who exploit it

Filed under: Cult,NATLFED,Politics,Uncategorized — ghostwriter1984 @ 10:15

Yesterday was an exciting weather day for Oregon.  Two tornadoes hit coastal towns and one declared an emergency due to the damage.  You don’t think of Oregon as a place that gets tornadoes.  It’s rare but it has happened.  Remnants of a Pacific storm system slammed the coast (yeah, they don’t usually call them hurricanes out here, especially when they travel across the ocean — pick your favorite weather station and learn something new).

So far, there are no warnings of scam artists trying to fleece the public in order to make a buck or two off the emergency.  The folks in Manzanita have a particularly difficult task of rebuilding.  In case you’re wondering, try a Maps search and see how close to Portland it is.  Watch out for those trees, George.  Portland is particularly noteworthy because a) it’s a large metropolitan area, b) it has numerous opportunities for charitable efforts to aid the distressed town, and c) it has a front office for the cult.

If it is your intent to donate to assist the relief, it is not my intent to stop you.  All I ask is that you check out the group you’re contributing to in order to make sure it’s legit.  The Organization exploits natural disasters such as hurricanes, earthquakes, Northeasters, floods, arctic freezes, just waiting on some volcano now…

The wild weather continues today with hurricane force winds and rains.  It’s a bad weekend.  The coast will continue to take the brunt of it.  Those further inland will still feel the effects.  Emergency candles at the ready as high winds knock down power lines, it’s not that cold but it’s wet and nasty.  The various churches are already planning to expand their food donations and the Food Bank is on standby.  At this moment, the good sisters are praying while people like myself are battening down the hatches.

This is not to take away from what’s happening on the east coast.  Mathew and Nicole are certainly doing their thing.  It’s just something about disasters that bring out the worst scammers.  The Organization calls it a target of opportunity and exploits it.  Some of you might be thinking: if they’re getting out food and clothes to folks, that can’t be too bad.  I know, the group does manage to pull off some charitable efforts.  They’ll be going for the big money, the big-ticket items including cars, and donations of food or clothes are just a bonus.  It’s difficult to send a ton of clothes as part of the ten percent to NOC.

If you hear of special disaster campaigns being run by the front cult groups, drop a note.  I’ve only heard of one effort to get a truck to Manzanita.  I don’t think they’ll make any plans to set up a permanent field office in the tiny town, but we’ll see.

October 9, 2016

Have you noticed lately?

Filed under: Cult,NATLFED,Politics,Uncategorized — ghostwriter1984 @ 22:41

There is a reason the group does not want “losers, boozers, or users” amidst its ranks.  In fact, in several discussion groups someone posted a copy of a signed directive from the leadership to stop recruiting from that base.  It’s true — you can’t organize when you’re drunk or stoned.  No one will debate that point.  Poses too many issues.  We’ll instead focus on the losers.  What does the group mean by that?  Simply put, persons that lack resources.

There was a time when the Organization recruited persons from a wide variety of backgrounds including professors, doctors, lawyers, militants, working class persons, and those who had nothing to lose except the chains.  We won’t focus on the “what happened” because we’ve discussed the mass exodus after the failed date and the purges.  There were other periods of major exodus.  Like any good cult, the group learned not to advertise a date.  Some might even say it is relying on things just happening.

In its desperation to re-staff the entities, quantity became more important than quality.  In fact, that was the basis of the purges — to reverse that with quality instead of quantity.  During the first major exodus, the group lost the movers and shakers, those who knew how to successfully carry out systemic organizing.  That was when the entities suffered greatly.  The power recruiters were at non-field entities.  WPC was recruiting cadre and eventually these persons were put in leadership positions directing persons with ten or fifteen years’ experience, insulting them by reading from the Essential Organizer or the STP’s.  To this day, there are still persons who never spent a day in a field entity working out of administrative offices.

Why are there so many stories of former cadre who lost or nearly lost inheritances to the group?  How many still remain in the group?  Not all recruits were indigent.  It helped if you had a trust fund.  Yes, we know someone will compare it to the olden days of persons wanting to enter convents or monasteries.  A woman was expected to bring her dowry; and a man was expected to bring his inheritance.  If you read about the saints, many of them gave up their claims to titles and brought their monies to such establishments.  If you were too sickly, you could not join.  If you lacked a dowry or inheritance, that was not an automatic no.  The abbot or abbess tested your soul.  Once you were in, you were in.

There was a time that the notion of part-time cadre was repugnant to the group.  There were only a couple of such persons.  Now, it is a different matter.  If your checkbook could provide, it’s tolerated.  I still remember the rocket scientist, a genius in his own right, and it took several years before he made the break from part to full-time.  And like the church tithing custom, ten percent of his wages were earnestly submitted to the Organization.

I was checking out the Wiki Leaks on the group.  There’s not much there except listings of what are believed to be still active fronts and inactive fronts.  It’s hardly a big secret.  We have lists like that as well.  I suppose they have bigger fish to fry than some obscure little group with barely one hundred members scattered across the country.  It’s just how it is.

I read one article where an entity purchased its building, a nice storefront in a downtown area.  What the press didn’t say was that the cadre received an inheritance and made the purchase.  Whether or not he did this on his own or at the behest of his ordinates, we’ll never really know for sure.  Trying to find out information about what’s happening inside the group is nearly impossible.  I hear rumors but you want truth.  What is the truth about the ownership of the buildings that the fronts occupy?

Just a little food for thought.  It’s getting late, you see, and I’m keeping an ear to the ground on the hurricane.  We know the Organization will do whatever it can to exploit the natural phenomenon for financial gain.  It’s a target of opportunity.  My old stomping grounds could end up under water if the cyclone reaches those shores.  You never know.  It’s not often when a hurricane makes it way up to Boston but it has happened.  Con artists know how to exploit such things.  Make sure you donate to a group you can trust.  Maybe a beer company will bottle water for a few days.

Once again talking about the money stirs up trouble

Filed under: Cult,NATLFED,Politics,Uncategorized — ghostwriter1984 @ 14:28

Well, that didn’t take long.  Probably should have approved the comment just to show it was real but the flamer has his own website.  Let him rant over there as he espouses the virtues of his beloved cult and belittles the former cadre.  What’s the issue?  Apparently, Mary should have let the Organization keep the money rather than keep it for herself; or at the very least returned the money “to the people.”

Let’s get one thing straight: most everyone knows that Diane was the only one with enough chutzpah to assume the Mary pseudonym.  The sooner you understand that, the sooner you “get” where she came from.  That was perhaps why the former low-level cadre bought in to the apologists’ cunning silver tongue that she never existed.  As to returning the money to the people, well, maybe your beloved cult should stop stealing it from the people.

It’s been twenty years and the Organization is still upset over losing those monies.  Even I don’t know for sure how much.  I’ve heard anywhere between $9-12 million entrusted to a woman who thoroughly and completely believed she was what the Old Man said: his daughter.  Alright, it did shake up the family tree a bit.  However, no DNA tests were ever conducted to prove he was the father.  She planned an exhumation but her health in the end detoured those plans.

If every former cadre thought they had to return the money they stole from the Organization, why, that’s a dangerous precedent.  After all, how much money did the Organization steal from the cadre?  Siphoning off trust funds, seizing control of properties, etc. and then not returning those things when the cadre left.  It led to several lawsuits, most famous involving Mia.  Some of you are probably cheering, “Go girlfriend, get your money back.”

What about those of you who stole from the group in order to make your lam?  Do you think you should return it?  There are several stories of cadre loading up entity cars and leaving.  Those cars were donated by community members.  Yet those cadre took the cars anyway.  Perhaps the rationalization was that they managed the procurement in the first place, but the donation was to the front group not the individual.  Then the various clothes on the cadre’s backs also donated by community members along with shoes, coats, etc.  All piled up in those donated cars.  You needed gas money to make away from the area, so you took whatever cash you could.  Maybe even drained what little money was in the entity bank account.  After all, you’re driving 500 miles from New York to Ohio (give or take).  There was one person so determined to strip mine the office that she rented a trailer and loaded up whatever she could such as the damn stove, refrigerator, washer/dryer, and bed.  How the hell did she get a bed?  Every other damn cadre slept on foam pads on the hard floor.  Guess one came in donated and she decided she deserved better, being the only cadre in the office and no one really checked on what she was doing.

You know, you’re not supposed to sleep in the offices.  They are businesses, not zoned for habitation purposes.  The original premise was to maintain on site security in the event of attempted raid or burglary, with sending the rest of the cadre out to donated lodgings.  It eventually became kind of sort of optional to have outside housing.  The public line was to have someone on site in the event of emergencies (yeah, like they’d open the doors before 9:00 a.m.).

Of course, one office got around that by zoning the main floor as a business and the second floor as residential.  That’s the office where they fell behind in the taxes and mortgage, used that to rip off the part-time upper middle class cadre who wanted to do nice things for poor people.  One was so pissed she quit after how many years?  That $5,000 rip off is the stuff of legends and sorry but the cadre who stole it did not go to jail; otherwise, little miss housewife would have to tell her husband that she was sleeping around, he’d divorce her, she’d lose out on her beautiful six bedroom home etc.

There was one cadre who fled in a car from NOC.  I forget where she landed the car.  It was several states away.  I guess she gave the group their just desserts because she abandoned it at a train station, so it racked up all kinds of tickets and then eventually impound fees.  Does she need to pay back the Organization for that?  After all, you have to think like the apologist and the people had to pay those dollars to recover the vehicle (or at least prevent the registered owner of the car from going to court or jail).

Actually, if you think about it, there were several “lone cadre” offices staffed by one person for years at a time.  Those are some of the more dramatic escape stories in terms of what they left with including the people’s cars, monies, clothes, food, etc.  Even the jumps started with two.  Okay, so they were failures, couldn’t recruit, whatever.  Why not send in help?  Or someone else (a new team) to just flat-out take over?  That part never made sense to me.  What do you do if you have two entities part of one unit that both have just one cadre?  Well, makes for an interesting group meeting of two people.  Wait, what?

Okay, so everyone who “took” something when they left the cult should really make amends to “the people” in order to satisfy the apologist.  And hopefully in return the cult will return everything you gave when you joined including your jewelry, monies, even compensate you for your time.  At the very least, you should get the $5 a week they never paid (that $4,160 for a 16 year person, FYI) plus 5,848 packs of cigarettes (a pack a day) or the monetary value (I can’t go there, cheap smokes are $6 a pack in some areas or $10 a pack in others).

Before I leave this sarcastic note (you did figure it out that it became sarcastic at the end, right?) I would like to remind you several former members have written books.  Each one offers something different.

We’re just a blog not of interest to the experts

Filed under: Cult,NATLFED,Politics,Uncategorized — ghostwriter1984 @ 11:26

Back in the founding days of this not-so-humble blog, I think people looked forward to the rantings and ravings of former cadre.  After all, one of the founders was someone who managed to leave with money.  Yes, we’ve heard the stories of people who allegedly stole money etc. when they bailed on the Organization.  In the various forums, those people eventually cropped up and denied it.  The stories were fabricated by the group such that the person could never return.

I don’t mean the garden variety cadre.  I’m talking about the powerful leaders who held great sway but ended up leaving because of internal disagreements and ultimately failing to convince the Old Man to proceed with the revolution.  I could say the Central Committee, but it was not a real governing body.  If they made a decision that the Old Man didn’t like, he made them change it.  The powerhouses within the CC eventually realized the group was never going to make the revolution and began leaving.

Not all left in disgrace.  Most did.  When Chair left, she was brandished an alcoholic and needed time to recover.  Even the burning down of her house was attributed to a drunken stupor by the group.  Note key words by the group.  Most people took that at face value.  Those who left took that at face value.  Only a handful had the moxie to look into the official reports, colder than Pluto, of an unresolved arson.  Another high-ranking official left, one who had a hand in the earliest founding of the west coast entities, but was allowed the “dignity” of an indefinite medical leave (otherwise, the group would have suffered faction).  Another was accused of stealing several millions dollars.

It all depends upon your point of view, really.

The very idea of this blog was a collaboration of three former cadre from vastly different backgrounds.  One walked away from the group when a relative died and she stood to inherit.  The casket wasn’t even covered in dirt yet when the Organization attempted getting the woman to sign over her monies.  She was allowed extended bereavement leave such that she could consolidate family assets and the such.  Cadre checked on her and she trusted them with certain dealings.  She eventually learned that the Organization was stealing money from her when several checks were cashed at the bank, all from the same series checkbook.  That particular series was missing.  It was her uncle who arranged for the authorities to catch the thieves cashing another check at the bank.  She just didn’t understand it.  She had no problem giving money to the group.  She didn’t understand why they went to such lengths to forge her signature.  THAT caused her to disassociate with the group.

Another former cadre “never saw it coming” as the old saying goes.  Well, maybe she did.  She knew something was wrong when $129 came up missing from a cash box.  She was OPS and had a good day of raising money at a bucket drive.  You know the story — the entity found itself a little short, needed a quick boost of cash, by the time the team returned the bank was closed.  Yet the next day the money was missing, and only two people had a key to that box.  It was discovered missing by Arena OPS; it was eventually found by Arena OPS.  Sounds like a case for Perry Mason.  The cadre was violently evicted from the office.

Probably the best former cadre was the only who did not steal monies, but rather, chose not to return that which the Old Man originally entrusted her to safeguard.  It was a difficult time with the passing of the Old Man and the power struggle within the group.  I won’t attempt to get into all of the discussions of the CC, knowing what occurred on one coast in detail and having only read notes of what occurred on the other coast.  The newly elected Chair did not have consensus until those in opposition either submitted or were violently ousted.  The position of Party Organizer was retired despite its transference to someone not Chair (that was the Old Man’s position, in case you’re curious).  Some chose to submit, fearing a splintering of the group.  Big mistake.  The great purges came along.  Most opponents were driven out but some were violently expelled, ended up in hospitals.

I guess that was why Diane was well-loved by many former cadre.  I’m not saying that people were happy that she ended up in a busy Brooklyn emergency room with broken ribs and a crushed kneecap.  She did, however, have certain unique things including a driver’s license that listed her address at the brownstone 1A, as well as the various accounts that only a handful knew the Old Man established through various organizational liquidation and sales.  The tale gets a little muddy because she did try to return.  Knowing what the group had done in the past forging documents and such, she did transfer those monies to new accounts.  Relatives swooped in, hoping to milk the cash cow, but she was still convinced that a splinter faction was responsible for what happened to her.  She still thought she was protecting those assets.

The rest, as they say, is history.  She did learn that it was orchestrated by the new Chair.  She even attempted a seizure of the property.  When her relative’s house in Queens was mysteriously firebombed, she finally abandoned her interest in fixing the group and she moved on to other things for a while.  Every now and then, she’d taunt the group with silent vigils staring at the watch window with supporters from her fledgling group.  I believe it was 2010 when she started filing various lawsuits against the group just to mess with them.

Well, no point in going on about her life.  Some readers don’t even believe she was real, just a fantastical over-the-top creation meant to entertain former cadre.  Maybe that’s why not a single former or current cadre attended her funeral when she finally lost the battle to leukemia.  That’s not even fair to say.  She had the bone marrow transfusion.  You know, it still pisses me off that only one family member offered to donate marrow but when she passed they all wanted a piece of the pie.  The 7 out of 10 match was barely good enough.  Maybe if she had the transfusion years earlier, she would have been strong enough to survive it.

It’s these type of personal recollections that the experts don’t want to hear.  Why?  They want to remain as objective as possible.  These types of recollections will “pollute” their objectivity.  Humans are also subjective creatures.  It doesn’t matter that blog moderators have changed over the years.  Maybe that’s why the current moderation doesn’t appeal to the original audience as much.  Where’s the fire and brimstone?  Rain down the frogs and locusts!  No, I try to be a little more level-headed than those who came before in an attempt to answer your questions to the best of my ability.

The truth is that all of the founding cadre are dead.  Yes, every last one.  If anyone tells you they were cadre in 1971 or 1972, they’re full of crap.  There were only a handful of cadre left from the seventies but I’ve no idea if they’re still around or alive.  Those who didn’t leave ended up dying from old age or untreated illnesses (how many succumbed to cancer not treated at all or treatment started when it was already too late?).  There used to be a time that multiple apologists attacked this blog, attempted to humiliate or harass former cadre, but they don’t even bother.  They’re down to one, as far as I know, and even still it’s a half assed attempt just for the sake of, “Wow, they still won’t shut up; better say something or her royal majesty will not deign to give me crumpets at tea time.”

As a side note: the Organization will be exploiting the hurricane to raise monies and other donations.  If you see the stuff go in, I hope you see the stuff go back out to the community.  I’m not opposed to people getting free clothes when they otherwise can’t afford it.  I am opposed when the fronts receive free clothes and send them to the mysterious elsewhere.

October 2, 2016

We used to own the streets

Filed under: Cult,NATLFED,Politics,Uncategorized — ghostwriter1984 @ 11:24

I’m shaking my head at a recent report that the original flagship entity is afraid to canvas the streets because of the gangs.  I knew it was true in other locations, particularly the more urban centers.  Some cities are in that weird stage of too small to be urban but too large to be rural.  We used to own Brentwood.  The gangs took it.  The cult has cut its losses on an area that once proved a historical gem in the crown jewels of progressive action.

You’d have to be a fool to go into a war zone unprepared, but the local front organization just said, “Screw it.  We surrender.”  Why?  Well, the old days of all males rushing outside of the building to chase away the Johnson Boys are long done.  They’ll piss on the side of the building and a sentry will dutifully note it in the log but no one will intervene.  That’s why the buildings are constantly being scraped of graffiti.

We’ve known that areas like Riverhead were long abandoned, another historical gem.  Does the cult even want to stay in Suffolk?  Knowing that they’ve lost the old bedroom community and farm workers have it worse now than before 1972, it’s time for the cult to leave.  When we heard the camp reopened, we couldn’t believe the news.  Yup, the Old Man must be rolling over in his vandalized grave (yes, we heard about that too).

It’s not the first time an entity has relocated.  Some offices have moved two or three (or more) counties away to “start again” including Upstate EFWA, Atlantic City (yes, we used to be there too until forced into Pleasantville), and a few others.  If the cult can’t hold it, that’s what needs to be done: move.

Not to fear; the good sisters on the Island may be afraid but they have the courage to remain and continue their charitable works.  As long as they’re handing out bread and fish, the gangs let them do their thing.  If they start talking, well, that’s another matter, but the sisters understand the tacit treaty.

September 4, 2016

We cater to a small audience

Filed under: Cult,NATLFED,Politics,Uncategorized — ghostwriter1984 @ 19:16

And you know — we’re okay with that.

In corresponding with an old friend, he suggested that we broaden our audience.  Currently, we only have a handful of followers and probably half of them are spying on behalf of the cult.  We know there are some who are interested in our weird and strange outlook on life after the cult.  We also know there are those trying to understand the cult because they know someone in it, someone who was in it, or someone in danger of being sucked into it.

It’s not that big of a cult.  Sure, they do a lot of blustering about 41 entities etc. so we know they have at least 41 cadre in the field working those front offices.  We’ve discussed the exaggerated numbers.  The numbers of benefit association members are highly inflated, always growing, never taking into account attrition due to death or lack of interest.  Even a recognized union has processes for members not active or failing to maintain good standing.  Ah, but it’s not a union.

In the state I live in, laws have adapted to encompass mutual benefits associations.  That’s not an accident, nor an isolated phenomenon.  Check out the laws in your state and you might be surprised.  If you’re a former cadre, check out the laws where you used to work as an organizer.  These laws have been silently implemented without a reaction from the cult.  What’s the rule for how many days you can volunteer before you earn the right to look at the books?  Dishonest groups have two sets of books.

There are a number of online support groups for survivors of mainstream cults.  As far as I know, there are none for survivors of this group.  Oh, there are loose knit discussion forums that become bogged with arguments that stagger the minds of those who weren’t in it.  There’s at least one of former members still dedicated to making the cause happen.  There is also at least one so-called support group for family members struggling with what to do when their loved one doesn’t come home, moderated by a current cadre who gleans whatever useful information he can and reports back to the group.  If there is a legitimate online group, we’ve yet to find it.

If you’re following this blog, you have interest.  Whatever that interest, it is your own.  Others may share similar interests.  There was a time we encouraged updates about the group.  We’ve learned not to pursue such efforts.  It is extremely difficult to find out reliable information about what’s going on inside the group.  There’s no transparency.  They suffer the same problems other cults do — victims of physical abuse too afraid to report it, extreme emotional and psychological duress, constant torment and pain.

If the entity has no money to keep on the lights, the problem is with the cadre.  Persons recruited through non-mutual benefits associations end up taking leadership roles, looking up how to give instructions from old dated manuals such as the Essential Organizer and the Systemic Tactical Protocols.  Only one entity ever managed to correctly implement the Special Event Protocol, and it temporarily replaced Suffolk as the flagship entity.  Yet it lost the momentum.  Suffolk may have had its problems, but it was a steady source of people, money, and resources to support the administrative offices for many years.

That’s why when we talk about things such as the procurement of roofing supplies for the Riverhead office, only those who were in it will understand.  Those donated supplies never made it to Riverhead; they ended up used for the brownstones in Brooklyn.  Stories such as the Big Duck may have a slightly larger interest base, but it is a historical building.

When we say we’re not interested in expanding readership, we’re pretty firm.  We could add pictures of cute, adorable kittens.  That’ll bring in the readers.  Egyptians used to worship cats in ancient times; modern memes reincarnated the practice.  We do want persons interested in the topic to continue reading as well as offer hysterical/historical outbursts from time to time.

This will never be a Pulitzer site.  After all, look who’s doing the writing — sad, recovering former cult members.

There was a time when the Organization recruited a broad base of cadre — all walks of life including ministers, professors, social workers, doctors, lawyers, medical professionals, even a genuine rocket scientist.  Something happened along the way.  When I read a memorandum that someone sneaked out of the group about boozers, abusers, and losers, it was a “tell” of the change in recruitment practices.  Don’t misunderstand me — they still have interest in the college kids, hoping to misdirect them on the crossroads of life.

Readership saw a temporary spike on our other blog when we changed it from private to public (with consent from persons who submitted content).  However, as it is only a handful of stories without new resource material, it’s also not going supernova.  No one cares, except those who still have any interest in following news about cult survivors.

This blog is not the definitive resource.  We always encourage that you do the research.

Memories get better and better

Filed under: Cult,NATLFED,Politics,Uncategorized — ghostwriter1984 @ 14:37

I’m not talking about the old memories.  They’re still horrible.  Until someone comes up with a functioning time machine, they’ll always be there.  Unless you change it but still retain it.  Oh, the paradox!  I’m talking about making new memories after the cult experience.  After all, we may not be entirely in control of things but we do have better control rather than relying on some guru to tell us what to do/not do etc.

I had someone attempt to reprogram my memories of things past — “you’re not remembering what really happened” and that sort of thing.  Why do you even care?  You want me wallowing in the past instead of living in the day and planning for the future.  I say move along.  (I should use stronger language but I’ll keep it civil.).

There is life after a cult.  For some, it’s coming up roses.  Others are caught in the mud and morass that’s left when those you hoped to count on as friends and family abandoned you.  I know of several who were welcomed back into the fold with welcome arms.  Others were not so fortunate.  Abandoned hundreds of miles away, disinherited, left to start all over having nothing because the cult stripped everything of material value, bridges burnt, that sort of thing.

I think we know the ones who are doing very well.  They’re living off their trust funds again, going on their cruises, even pooh-poohing their past as the misadventures of youth.  Others never really gave up much so they had something to go back to.  Those who gave up everything had the most difficult struggles.  There is still rebuilding that must occur.

There are few networks designed to help recovering cult victims.  Even the so-called experts are few and far between.  If you were in an obscure group, resources prove difficult.  The toxicity of forums to help survivors cope do more damage than good.  Even the best moderated forums suffer from damaged persons still trying to maintain a perceived pecking order based on their former status in the group.

This is more of a problem than non-cult victims can truly understand.  Some persons are so programmed to be manipulative control freaks that even after their cult experience they can’t give it up.  They remain right while everyone else remains wrong.  It amazes me that the persons accused of stealing money from the group are all embraced by other survivors as having been framed, yet the one person who openly admitted to retaining control of monetary assets after her ousting from the group was declared a liar and there was no money.  She received plenty of criticism while she was alive that it wasn’t her money, yet no one had a problem with persons who fund raised money and resources for the sole purpose of making their escape.

Ah, the old arguments being raised to the table again!  Who brings forth these concerns?  Certainly not someone interested in helping cult survivors.  No, it’s definitely someone interested in keeping the bickering alive and well among the cult survivors.  As long as the survivors are arguing among themselves, others looking for help will be scared away.  The toxicity returns.

I think it fair to say that survivors know there is an apologist (at least one but perhaps two) intent on doing all s/he can to discredit them.  It has come to my attention that a couple of old accounts may have been reactivated by said apologist, perpetrating a fraud that s/he is someone who either died or worse, someone who is still alive.  If you think you’re communicating with this blog owner, think again.  The only way you can know with any certainty is to leave a comment and have it responded to as a comment.  There is also the address on the contacts page.

I know and admit that I have issues.  I have heard a voice from the past try to bring me back into the fray of toxic discussions, strange accusations, weird scenarios, and attempts to rewrite memories.  I know full well how I earned a scar on my finger; don’t dare tell me that the scar is in my mind.  I can see it, feel it, and remember how I got it.  Other scars can’t be seen, and that’s what you’re trying to get at.

It is a strange little essay today, mostly because the community is so untrusting that it’s difficult to know who is saying what, when, where, why, and how.  Mm, the old newspaper rules — objective but can still be subjected to slants.

It’s more than “a person’s point of view” — if you don’t agree, that’s fine.  If you’re trying to subjugate me to your point of view, well, I say you must still be “in it to win it” and must be after me.  (The persecution problem rarely affects most members; just the ones unafraid to speak up.).

Ah, to be blessedly insane yet more rational than those in the cult!

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